Spinning Wheel

Would it be so terrible if I left my job right this very second so I really could graduate in August and leave for the Peace Corps on time? I just saw online that the classes I'll need this spring and summer are neither offered in spring nor in summer. What? That's right, kids. That would mean I couldn't get those classes until fall 2008, effectively pushing my graduation date back to December instead of August (after the restructuring of the soc major pushed it to August from April).

So I was thinking about how 3/4-time is the most expensive way to go to school and how I cringe at the idea of my graduation date being pushed back. Me and my graduation are like magnets trying to connect at the wrong ends. North and north repel each other. It makes me want to scream. It's always just out of reach.

Even if those two classes were offered at night this winter, there's no way on this earth I could handle 15 credits and keep enough hours at the bank to keep my position. Oy.

Okay, leaving the bank right now would mean I really would graduate in August and could actually be available for Peace Corps service in the fall. I'd want to leave earlier because I wouldn't be making any money by sticking around. I also wouldn't go into my student loan grace period and could have that time when I return. The downside to leaving earlier includes missing the holidays an extra time (unless I leave before Labor Day), no time for that grad school prereq independent study class, not visiting Bridget in France before I go, and so on.

On second thought, I could take that prereq over the summer with my last two BS classes.

If I did leave the bank right now, I'd want to move closer to school or into Mom and Dad's house (not that there's any room there, but the price is right). If I moved to Provo ... I'm not moving to Provo. Either way, I'd want an on-campus crap job that wouldn't take much time but would allow me some study time and get me some groceries.

I haven't even been back at the bank for a year, and this year I'd get a normal number of vacation days. There's the winter party, bonus time, the people I love -- there are definitely reasons to stay. Are they worth moving my graduation date back for the millionth time?

I need to talk to an advisor down at the Coug to be sure about those classes and their availability. Even if I could get them in the summer, that means a full load, so it's either full-time now or during spring and summer. I'd prefer taking a full load over spring and summer instead of now, but that brings me back to class availability. I'm a spinning wheel.

I guess it comes down to what is important to me. Clearly, it's not my job since I'm seriously considering ditching it. It's school -- as a means to doing something meaningful (not only the Peace Corps, but the rest of my life).

More to come.